Saturday, June 6, 2009

Second Year....

Sheri wrote this 11 months into our journey without you...now we are into our second year which everyone told me would be easier....how could anyone know our heart...or know how we would take your loss. I feel like I am starting my journey now as I put your beloved "TINA" down last week....I held her as she slipped away so peacefully...in 30 seconds she was gone..I couldn't help but think I would like to slip into eternity like that. Now I am ALONE...nothing to greet me when I come home...I know life will be easier now but another dimension of lonely.
I long to talk to you and I have so many questions I would ask you....why don't we communicate ....why does life get so busy that we forget to do the really important? So many people loved you and for 30 years I shared you w/so many..you were so respected and God gave you so much insight to help people find the real purpose of life. You knew how to rise above difficult circumstances and trials were opportunities to see God at work.
You were my "Cheerleader" and I miss that so much...The longer I travel this journey I am becoming more and more aware that it is a couple's world and my identity is different now.